Maybe I am not that strong after all.....

I am very blessed with a wonderful husband, four kids and 2 daughters-in-law to be.  Not to mention my mom and my sisters and brothers!!!!

Over the past 5 1/2 years, my life has been yet another transition.  Probably the first 2-3 years of the past 5 1/2 years - I was very sad and teary-eyed getting used to the beginning of the empty nest.  The last couple of years - I must admit - the Lord has given me the strength to embrace the inevitable.  Really enjoying the time with my husband and when we saw or heard from the kids - able to enjoy it and not cry when they hung up or left.

I really thought that I had beaten that Empty Nest sadness....until now.  The two sons that are getting married are both spending Thanksgiving with their fiances families.  I guess, it has started - the sharing.

Yes, I do appreciate the time I do get with them, but it is sad to really let go.  I know I will get used to it.

On the bright side - we get to spend time with the younger two - who are real treasures!  I feel for them, as I know that they will miss their older brothers as well - so it isn't just me.  They miss the old times of just our family - at the same time - I am sure that they are at that point in their lives that they are looking for that special person in their lives as well.

I can remember, once I was in college - going to family functions - and maybe my body was there - but my mind was racing where I could be that would be way more fun.  It is part of growing up and I do remember it well.

At the same time - I understand - I am still learning to let go....I am a mom and I love them - enough to work on letting go...